I'm a terrible person. I'm a terrible girlfriend.

I'm sitting here at my desk anticipating the worst from you. I'm preparing myself for that blow that may come when you finally do talk. When you are ready to talk about what is bothering you.

I want to move on from this fight that was caused because you overreacted over something that could have been handled a lot better. What I did was a simple misunderstanding and a stupid thing. You're the one who blew it out of proportion.
Yeah, I shouldn't have sent you that second text message, but you failed to even try to call me to find out without turning into a complete prick on messenger. You see, this is why I hate msn messenger and technology. YOU let me borrow your headset since you don't need it. Why the hell don't we use the voice chat more often?!

You didn't even try to call me when you noticed I was away. You didn't take the initiative to call me to find out that I had accidentally left messenger on.
Yes I know, I should have called you earlier to see how you were, etc. But, we all make mistakes. And right now, you acting this way right now and not being an adult and talking to me, it's making me think I made a mistake 6 years ago saying yes to you asking me out.

And for that, I hate you right now. You're making me think all these terrible thoughts about me, and about us.

I said what I felt needed to be said earlier tonight; me apologising and such. Now it's your turn to come out and just say what you feel needs to be said... even if it's the thing I fear the most, and yet am preparing for.

I don't know how I would be able to do things without you, i have no one to talk to, I have no friends, no one close. No one gives a shit about me. No one, not even most of my family. My mother is a selfish bitch who completely ruined my life and in the end, her actions and such have ruined me.
I am no longer that woman you fell in love with over 6 years ago, I have changed. The real world has changed me, all of the shit that has gone wrong in my life because of my family and my mother has completely ruined me.

I don't deserve to be happy, to be with someone like you. You don't deserve something like what I am. You don't deserve something as fucked up as this.

I'm sorry to have completely failed you. I won't do it again. You don't have to worry because I won't be around at all anymore. There's no reason for me to even try anything anymore in life and just give in.

My life is shit, I am shit. Always have, always will be. I've never been thought of.  Why do I even bother trying to do anything with my life? My family will never notice me. I've always been a disappointment to my mother, I've always been the topic of criticism in my families eyes... Even though I do everything that I should. I'm 25, in school trying to do something with myself. Not 22, college drop-out, and knocked up my soon to be 20yr old girlfriend who seems to have no desire to do anything other than be mommy and wifey.

I should just up and leave. Maybe then it won't matter.
No one cares. I've always felt that way.
I give up on happiness, I'll never have it. I keep fucking up every good thing I have. Including the years we've been together. That I hope we can continue and add more happy years... But, you're making me think it won't happen.

Again, I'm sorry I'm such a failure and fuck up.